As I always say, when we first started talking the week or so before we officially met I really had no intentions on pursuing you as more than a friend. But I ended up falling in love with you and after years not really listening to, trusting, or following God, we ended up here and unhappy. Often I do want to leave, but if I don’t know anything else, I know God told me that you were my husband the day that we met. So regardless of how I felt at times, rejected, neglected, disrespected, unappreciated, unprotected, unholy, I stayed. I was hurt, angry, bitter, insecure and it showed in my actions or lack there of. I prayed to God for forgiveness and now I would like to apologize to you and ask for you to forgive me too. I would have rather done this in person, but I am work writing this because I had to get these thoughts out and I didn’t wait until you got off from work. And how things have been lately who know when you’re getting off or if you are even coming home. So I’m sorry for mistreating you, hurting you, not loving you like I should. I’m sorry for expecting you to (help) fix things that only God can or that you didn’t even realize were broken and getting mad about it. I am sorry for putting you on a pedal stool and expecting you to do everything right/ I want. I’m sorry for letting you down and not being the woman/wife you need. I pray that we seek God to get closer to him, and to heal our hearts and renew our minds, to be able to stand together, as one, in peace, in joy, and in love.
uhh... I think my reading my posts will tell you way more about me than I could ever think of to type here.